Thursday, December 28, 2006


Wow. I just began to recognize that I have been blogging for a while now. And with that comes the starkly obviously knowledge that even if I don't feel like I am a seriously committment minded person that I do stick with things for more then brief periods of time. One day I may figure out the fine line between committment and responsibility.

I have no problems walking away from a committment, of any type, if it involves drama, heartache or just trouble in general. But call it a responsibility and Im stuck for life.

All the above is only living proof that you will remain confused about certain aspects of yourself, no matter your age, until you address and face them down one by one.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

David Allen Coe

You never even called me by my name.....

Download this song its great if you havent heard it yet.

I also hate country, unless its David Allen Coe

Monday, December 04, 2006

Dull Angry People

What is with some people who are the type that can not stand to see others happy. They usually don't act this out randomly in public but I KNOW if anyone reading this has had a few long term relationships that they have likely had this experience.

Look life has handed me some pretty horrific piles of crap in the past. Every man I have been with has been an utter piece of shit, and I mean that in the deepest sense of the words 'utter' and 'shit'. But I dont hate all men because of it, hell I dont even have any hardcore serious trust issues that stem from it. I still give them all equally a chance regardless of their predecessors actions.

But there are people who just cant live without having someone else to make miserable. I dont get that, when I am miserable, I dont want miserable company. Of course I dont want to be crying while someone is cheerleading and asking me if I want to make cookies, but I dont like company in misery. I like someone else to be there standing stronger then I can at that moment.

Why on earth would you want to bring everyone down to the desolate state you are in? Dont you realize that then everyone who surrounds you is weakened and vulnerable too? Who is going to pick you up? Who is going to offer comfort no matter how realistic it is?