Tuesday, June 23, 2009

True Enough

True enough Jeff so here goes.

For the first time in 8 years I have been told I would be allowed to see my son. FOR A MONTH!!!!!! Although I have misgivings about why they have finally allowed me to be near him, I am overjoyed to be able to have him here for a month starting this Saturday. I know for some who have read here they have seen me rage and cry about this issue before. And although it is likely I will still hate the folks who stole him from me until the day that I die, the hate has now been wrapped up a bit and put away in a nice tight lock box as I cant remain so angry when I have been told he could come here. I am seriously praying that this isn't some ploy on their part to once again set me up to look like a failure in front of my son. But even if it is, I suppose the month with him will be worth it.

So thats what I have been busy with. I just recently found Steven on facebook and a couple of his friends helped to get us together again and talking. I am amazed at him. He is only 15 but so wise. After 8 years apart we still have a bond like we did before. And all the poison they fed him, and still feed him about me, is lost on him. He has a mind of his own. He doesnt just take things for what they appear to be, or are told they are. He is cool, strong, fun and wise beyond his few 15 years. He is me when I was 15. He is me today. I cant wait!


Azathoth100 said...

I'm so glad that you get to see him and spend time with him. At 15 there isn't much time left till he can decide for himself who he wants to see and they will be powerless to stop him. So here I am getting married on Saturday, and here you are getting to see your son for the first time in 8 years on Saturday.. sounds like smiles and love all around. Errie isn't it?

Ĵōÿ said...

Welll, today I got an email telling me how they were calling it off. But nevertheless, I will spend Saturday thinking about you. I wont be able to help it now :p