Dude, I found my truck~

Well I found out what happened to it. The night before I got on the plane apparently my cousin had given me a couple of strong xanax to calm my nerves before I boarded. Well, it seems I got overanxious and took them right away. I called him from a friends house having apparently lost the ability to drive or use most other essential motor functions, so he picked me up. Well the trick worked really because not only do I not remember getting on the plane to head to Orlando, but I dont remember purchasing a vodka and grapefruit juice at the bar in Atlanta's airport where I had a layover. Wtf, I fuckin hate vodka, and grapefruit juice? Lol try getting me to drink that shit when I have more then one brain cell firing.

I was SURE that I left it at my dads house, which is why I was entirely shocked when he said, "uh, no Joy, you came back and got it that night dont you remember?"

No Dad, no I dont.

I got it back though, but I bet there was 3 weeks of hell on someone having to stare at my truck and couldnt use it. Damn carless people around here.

Whew~

Ok so I got back last week early after a slightly eventful take off into a storm that delayed our layover flights out of Atlanta. Got home, finally got my lost luggage back and got the PC from Bedford where there is currently no net connection and drug it to Roanoke to spend time with my DSL modem. So WB me and Im off to work up my vehicle story.

Yes I did find it.

YAY WENN N STACEY

Going to go to bar tomorrow night, and meet two more net friends Ive known for more then 5 years now on Sunday. Going to spend the day with them in Daytona! Getting on the plane Monday early afternoon. Last post! Im headed home after wrapping up the best part of vacation!

Blog @ u later!

In memory of Scot 'Escoses' Goodridge

For 5 years I played a game called Everquest. I made many friends along the way, and more then a couple of enemies. I was a leader of sorts on the game, so both were to be expected. I had a conflict with a couple of characters about a year ago. On Feb 25th I resolved that bitter conflict with one of those characters through my instant messenger. On March the 4th he was killed in a car accident. Ive spent this time going over how to honor another gift I was given in this matter. The gift of understanding and compassion. The second character I had the conflict was a good friend to this person who was killed last week. The second I seen her log onto my instant messenger I took a deep breath, swallowed stupid pride, and offered her the comfort only one who had suffered a similar loss can.

How close I came.. days close, to having to suffer the guilt once again of unsettled anger. How hard the lessons of guilt are already on my soul. Whatever powers that be spared me this time, and for that I appreciate.

I hope some of my post on the earlier part of my blog offered Shayla comfort. And Im sure if she reads this, or even Dan does, they will know the meaning behind it.

Almost too late

We didnt always get along
We didnt always agree
But everytime the night got hard
You were there for me

We talked a lot
About you and me
And the things that made us alike
Then in the end
It was those same things
That caused us lasting strife

But here I am to honor you
And comfort those who cared
And in the end nothing else matters
Then the few moments we shared

When asked why and how and what
How could I set her soul at ease?
But I cast off anger and did what was right
So I could tell her 'see?'

It was because of my own loss
that I felt it was fair
To ignore the anger of a year ago
And prove that I was there.

I hope your soul will rest in peace
Perhaps it was your spirit
That gave mine the needed shove
But I want you to know
that yes indeed
She will be loved.

Fuck the birds!!

Fuck birds.

One woke me up this morning at around 10:30 am. Screeching.. .over and over and over. Had I been at home, I would have got up, thrown the window up, and gave that bird a nice "SHUT THE FUCK UP"

As it is, I had to just get up.

Fuck birds. Unless they are parrots, I have nothing for them.

Dude...Where is my truck?

Apparently the night before I got on the plane I also had a tad too much to drink. I THOUGHT my truck was left in front of my dads house but my dad said I picked it up later that night.

Hmm, well when I get back to Roanoke I have a small mystery to solve.

Damn drinking......

Seriously, Ive lost my own vehicle. Thats terrible!

Damnit to hell!

Hungover
Again
Argh!

Huff Huff Huff

Damn
Tampa Bay was beautiful but DAMN driving wears your ass out.

Off to Bar Orlando in a few!! The Perfect Saturday Night Hot Spot!!

Survey I found on Shannons blog

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Joy
Birthday:	September 20th
Birthplace:	Roanoke Va
Current Location:	Orlando Fl
Eye Color:	Multi colored
Hair Color:	Red
Height:	5 foot 3
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Right
Your Heritage:	Irish/Scottish
The Shoes You Wore Today:	None
Your Weakness:	Smoking
Your Fears:	None
Your Perfect Pizza:	Xtra Pepperoni and Onions
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	A good job
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	WTF
Thoughts First Waking Up:	Im hungry
Your Best Physical Feature:	My arse
Your Bedtime:	Right before the sun comes up
Your Most Missed Memory:	Riding around on lunchbreak with Ben
Pepsi or Coke:	Coke
MacDonalds or Burger King:	McDonalds, though I hate them both
Single or Group Dates:	Single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Cappuccino
Do you Smoke:	Yes
Do you Swear:	Incredible amounts
Do you Sing:	Never, I dont want to kill people
Do you Shower Daily:	Yes
Have you Been in Love:	Its possible but Im never quite sure
Do you want to go to College:	Yes, er, I mean I did already
Do you want to get Married:	No, never again
Do you belive in yourself:	Yes
Do you get Motion Sickness:	No
Do you think you are Attractive:	No
Are you a Health Freak:	No
Do you get along with your Parents:	Occasionally
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Yes
Do you play an Instrument:	I used to
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	Yes
In the past month have you Smoked:	Yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	Yes
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	No
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	No
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	No
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	No
In the past month have you been on Stage:	No
In the past month have you been Dumped:	No
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	No
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	No
Ever been Drunk:	Yes
Ever been called a Tease:	Yes
Ever been Beaten up:	Yes, but only by weak men
Ever Shoplifted:	Yes
How do you want to Die:	In my sleep
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	I dont want to grow up
What country would you most like to Visit:	Ireland
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	Green
Favourite Hair Color:	Dark brown or black
Short or Long Hair:	Long
Height:	5 foot 8 or so
Weight:	160 +
Best Clothing Style:	Causal
Number of Drugs I have taken:	All of them except Xtasy
Number of CDs I own:	None now the ex took them
Number of Piercings:	4, ears only
Number of Tattoos:	Jesus... a lot
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	None
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

New Endings

Well

Even on Vacation there is bound to be someone who trys to fuck things up. So here I was sitting wondering where my alcoholic ex had been hiding himself and he popped up again today. Of course it was only to tell me he had tried to kill himself. He had sent me an email declaring he would days ago. Then disappeared so I would worry and not enjoy the vacation.

I do miss him, even through the abuse its hard not to miss someone you spent so much of your life with, but that part of my life is over. After he ,of course, blamed his attempted suicide on me I decided then it was time to break it for good. I asked a family member to file the divorce for me and get him to sign it, and that the day I came back I would sign it as well and make it official. My divorce is paid for and will be awaiting my pleasure upon my return.

In the words of my ex who does read my blog, because of course he MUST have new shit to toss in my face:

dragon: go sock some puerto rican cock

Ok Im assuming sock means suck and I understand the rest... so my reply to him is:

Why thank you sir, I think I just may do that.

Good Bye Doug and Good Riddance!!

My Girl!!

Welp, I found Kelley tonight. Went out, played some pool, drank some beers with her. It was the first time Ive cried out of joy in a loong time, it might have been the first time Ive ever cried just because I was seeing or meeting someone. Incredible shit. Everyone should experience that at least once.

When we finally found time to stop hugging each other we got a couple pics. Ooops, well we were hugging in those too but Ill get those up asap!

Amazing~!

****Picture of Kelley and I is in my Flickr Album!!! We were SOOO happy to meet each other.. can never forget that. Oh and Ill be back to spend more time with her VERY soon!!! (Oh and I looked horrible because the allergies had already smeared my make up off my face hours before, but I was happy so I didnt care!!)****

Boobies

I have seen more breast since arriving in Orlando last Thursday then Ive ever seen in my life.

Life is kind, sometimes. And what the ever loving hell???? Everyone here is so hot its unreal. I feel so...average. But thats fine, thats a world better then having people call you the devil, which tends to get you more attention then you want.

I have seen one redhead since Ive been here. And that was in a club with 600 people. DEAR GOD, THEY ARE BREEDING US OUT.