Friday, August 20, 2004

Some would say you are left with what you had...

So I havent gotten to the last part yet. Steves funeral and the months that followed. To be honest there is a lot of that time I cant even remember. Ive always been great about intentionally blocking out bad memories. Some of them I purposefully hold onto, while others I stash away the second I gain them. I know one thing Ive learned in this lifetime. Either the word coincidence is grossly mis-defined..... or the scientist that refuse to believe in the supernatural are just opinionated morons.I guess that song Left Behind that I keep quoting from defines a lot of my life. I started with nothing, no parents even. And I gained some intensely great friendships along the way. Friendships that came as close to making up for the lack of family as is possible. Then they were taken from me too. So there I was again, left with what I started with. So Ive learned the whole "Dont know what you have until its gone" lesson pretty well. If thats what I was supposed to learn then the forces that be can stop now. I dont think Ill ever have a moment in my life where I dont have full realization of that saying.

4 comments:

JustJess said...

"Either the word coincidence is grossly mis-defined..... or the scientist that refuse to believe in the supernatural are just opinionated morons."

- though in general, your post saddened me, when i read this...i could do what, but smile....i don't know you, just stumbled upon your blog...but i had to comment...just had to...sure hope you don't mind...keep on keeping on...

despite our greatest efforts, life just keeps happening...

smilz,

j

Joy said...

Thank you J. And no I certainly dont mind. Actually, I appreciate you taking the time to comment. Most people just move on. I guess Im trying to teach myself not to move on without stopping to say what needs to be said. Thank you for showing me why I should do so...

JustJess said...

yeah, i know exactly what you mean...and it's always interesting to me the people who get it and the ones who just don't...i guess we all have our lessons to learn, ya know...and in all things, even my stopping by here...there is purpose and meaning...;-)

shine on grlie ;-)

btw, i'm around, if you ever fancy a penpal....

j

Joy said...

You are right. I had a great boss once that said something that makes a lot of sense, and perhaps none at all. He said "When all else fails, and you cant think of anything else to say, there is one word that makes you make sense of it all. Absolutely."

And you are absolutely right. There is meaning behind most things in my opinion. Just as there is meaning behind what I should be learning from the deaths of my friends, I truly believe the same for your presence here.

I know one thing. You being here and your commments gave me a good smile, that has to mean something as I do it so little these days.

I get the feeling you would make a great pen pal. Your thoughts and encouragement really do mean a lot.